Posts Tagged Hopelessness
He parked his too-large automobile
in front of craft shops, wondering
who was watching him, who was judging
his journey, looking up slightly
at the seventy-three hundred
addresses, thinking about West and East,
thinking about which way was going
up so he could find the place. He knew
going in was a chore commanded of him
through a very brief moment of self-discipline
while knowing that this is the last place
he would ever want to go.
are not the people
he would ever choose to be with.
The daily commute had been tortuous
for years. It had been part of his insanity
incubator, his car had become the prison
that had fostered the growth
of the most severe anger at the most
inconsequential things, not a violent anger,
but a fearful one, an anger that starts
with being born, an anger that starts
with his parents, but not an anger at them,
an anger at what they had given him,
all of those disgusting genetic defects.
Seething gray inches smoothly
Through big, West plates
Filled with faithful evergreens.
Morning is too soon, but
Swimming vines, gripping softly,
Simmer the stew of life.
Pliable comets of bodies of silk,
Velvety lotions of wild hormones,
Promise of a day with no other agenda,
Adoration blooming without fear,
Shaking with bright foreshadowing,
Not waiting for the blackness to
Smother and scare the gray.
Hoping explosive, calming reds of
Evening to come will fuse the old,
Broken grounds of love’s history.
Dreaming anticipation of
Cushioned, soft playgrounds to come
Will forbid unwanted guests of
Torture and hopelessness.
Knowing that hope and those
Brilliant, deep, blue eyes
Will conquer the meaninglessness.
Let her work, God, please
Let her cover me in warm chains of
Silk, comforting with blue waves.
Please let her protect me from
All of the evil, heavy swarms of
Vicious wolves who love to harm daily.