Sitting, uncomfortably warm, clammy, I plotted
drawing a picture with words but all that I could do
was come up with a title. I love the title, but now
I couldn’t possibly tell you what it is that I feel
as I have fallen into this crevice of my spirit, a jagged
pair of cliffs pinning me to my feverish desires, showing
me fields of acres of perfectly windswept snow with
three little blades of Kansas grassy stuff protruding
to warn me away, to ask me to take the dullest carving
knife and start splitting out all of those parts of my
defective brain, hoping to pinch off bits of the ravaged
spirit, pulling from the sinewy brain mush stuff that
tears like fat on prime rib. Some animal from
another corner of the barren field yells to tell me
that if I sever my brain, I will lose my life, but I yell
back, “but I will feel much better.”
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#1 by elettracavendish on March 5, 2013 - 6:52 pm
Oh, Carl… This is beautiful. I want it to be cathartic for you, because I see the beauty and I feel the pain.
#2 by Carl on March 13, 2013 - 9:52 pm
Thank you so much, Elettra. I appreciate your comment, and it is always cathartic to write it out.
#3 by Seabell on March 6, 2013 - 2:48 am
Strange, powerful feelings…
#4 by Carl on March 13, 2013 - 9:53 pm
Thank you, as always, for your comment. I appreciate you stopping by and commenting.
#5 by Carl D'Agostino on March 8, 2013 - 12:38 pm
drawing a picture with words – Certainly the mark of a “writer” for if no images form in the mind of the reader the text is junk.
#6 by Carl on March 13, 2013 - 9:54 pm
You are kind to me, and that helps me keep going.
#7 by clinock on March 9, 2013 - 12:58 am
The awesome alliteration of the title is still only the handle of a door that opens onto rooms of Soutine paintings and surreal severance. Carl – you travel inner landscapes with a courage I cannot help admire – you inspire, break hearts and evoke phantoms that we all share – thank you for your explorations…
#8 by Carl on March 13, 2013 - 9:57 pm
Comments like this from you, John, are a big boost to my day and they inspire me to keep going. I’m lucky and thankful for your time and visit.
#9 by claudia on March 12, 2013 - 1:04 pm
i think there’s already much in the title… and falling in the crevice of my spirit.. felt.. i think it happens to all of us…more or less deep..
#10 by Carl on March 13, 2013 - 9:59 pm
Thank you, Claudia. I appreciate your comment.