Lessons, strangling the deathly stillness of sobriety,
as we are forced to write our lists, and why the fuck
does it require ten? Because otherwise,
we’d stop at two, and the first is always sobriety.
I’m clean. My breathing does not gurgle in large pools
of muddy water, and my family, and the love, and
this is because vodka was never a match for love,
but it sure beat the pulpy slime out of love for long periods,
as the brain’s diseased mind circled in several strands,
like perverted green sharks, ripping pieces of compulsion,
drilling the hiding games, the dark gardens of shame
covered with ill seaweed craving an unconsciousness.
I can read! I can write! Look at me; I can see,
and today’s mind seeks some sort of warmth or
brightness which seems to bury the mildew of pebbles
rolling from dreary nights spent waiting to die, and though
not one of us knows god, we’re all glad we know
god again, that he holds us in large hands, but mostly,
our gratitude comes loudly knocking every single morning,
caressing those massive gaps in life when we know who we are,
where we are and what we are. We do. We know.
#1 by Elisa's Spot on November 23, 2012 - 6:59 am
#2 by Carl on November 26, 2012 - 10:07 pm
Thank you for commenting. I appreciate it.
#3 by Jennifer on November 23, 2012 - 10:46 am
It is so nice to wake up in the morning with a clear head and just be able to appreciate having a whole day ahead of you. Hope you enjoyed Thanksgiving. 🙂
#4 by Carl on November 26, 2012 - 10:08 pm
Thank you for your visit, Jennifer. Thanksgiving was great, and I hope yours was enjoyable.
#5 by Hawkruh on November 23, 2012 - 1:12 pm
YES! Most days should be Thanksgiving, designed for gratitude. Wonderful!
#6 by Carl on November 26, 2012 - 10:09 pm
Thank you for commenting. I appreciate it!
#7 by clinock on December 2, 2012 - 3:05 am
Yes, we know – but so often we forget we know – thank you for the reminder Carl…
#8 by Carl on December 3, 2012 - 9:51 pm
I seem to forget every day despite my efforts! Thanks for your comment.