Archive for November 28th, 2010
The burning structures crawl anxiously
Through the lids and the eyelashes.
I resist what the day brings.
Breath is short, chest tight, and my mind
Wants to reject all that flows in the circle.
One who loves me seems to dismiss
All that I am. I think of all of the lovers
She has and I know I am but a trinket.
I don’t know her lovers, but I think
They must be better. She claims she loves me
Unconditionally. I don’t think she lies,
But I cannot be good enough.
I’m unsuitable for all that burns,
And change won’t fix me,
But I clearly need change.
Here I am. I’m excited. I’m searching for the purpose that has been sorely lacking in my life. Part of that search has landed me here. My Facebook friends and my wife will be pleased to know that I will not be posting more crazed, abstract poetry using “Notes” on that site. My wife says people won’t know what to think of me (“what if one of your co-workers reads that poem?!”) , and while this doesn’t bother me, it would be good of me to accommodate her concerns.
I’ve been writing in a journal, have been writing on www.750words.com, and I’ve been sending micro-bursts of insanity on Twitter, but I wanted to do something a bit more rich in thought and something that might get read by an odd person out there. Facebook folks might not like it, but there might be someone who crashes into it and enjoys it. I love feedback, good stuff and for change and improvement, so please comment. My wish is that in part, this will help me find out what kind of man I want to be, preferably before I expire.