Not Writer’s Block, I start,
no, self-hatred, lack of balance,
and you can beat yourself,
waiting for another 2%,
beat yourself silly,
lose your love, lose
your kindness,
your beauty,
watching yourself hating
the world, the people,
the beautiful people,
hiding in your dark
closets, 22 minutes
per day, and your brain
is pummeled and out runs
your patience, your
love, and you say,
I quit but you can’t.
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Blog: Stillfugue Topics:Fiction, Poetry, Essays
#1 by Millie Ho on June 28, 2012 - 10:37 pm
Don’t quit!
#2 by Carl on July 10, 2012 - 8:53 pm
It’s too difficult to quit, isn’t it? Which is good.
#3 by clinock on June 30, 2012 - 2:46 am
The honesty in your writing touches me. I have just found that you are following art rat cafe, although I didn’t receive notification of this – thank you – I am honoured. I will be back to explore your site in more depth…
#4 by Carl on July 10, 2012 - 8:55 pm
I am honored by your visit. Honesty is one good thing to shoot for…
#5 by Hawkruh on June 30, 2012 - 6:17 pm
I’m not sure why, but this really reasonated with where I am at right now. I wish I could say its a good place, but it isn’t. But I’m still flag I read it and connected. Thanks Carl.
Hawkruh
#6 by Carl on July 15, 2012 - 5:58 pm
Thank you for your comment. Sorry for my delay in responding.
#7 by Hawkruh on June 30, 2012 - 8:16 pm
Carl, I really connected with your post. I’m not sure if it was in a good or bad way ( I’m not in a very good spot right now) but it hit home. Keep writing. Your words hold true meaning. Hang tight.
Hawkruh
#8 by Hawkruh on July 3, 2012 - 10:07 am
I really connected with this post though I’m not sure in what way. Keep writing. Let the words flow. They mean something. Thanks Carl.
#9 by Carl on July 10, 2012 - 8:52 pm
Thanks for your comment. I appreciate your encouraging words.
#10 by Carl D'Agostino on July 24, 2012 - 5:53 pm
As long as last line prevails hope remains. And is not false hope or delusional if we believe in ourselves. Not doing so leads to our evaporation.